The final countdown….

Baby girl numero deux is almost here, just three short weeks if everything (as it always does – insert wee wink) goes absolutely, perfectly according to plan.

In the throws of my eating disorder almost 20 years ago, the thought of getting pregnant never even entered my mind. Despite what “experts” would tell me about the permanent damage I may be doing to my body; the fact that if I kept clinging to ED I may never be able to have children….I (and by “I” I really mean ED as we were so entwined, him and I) picked my eating disorder, over the possibility of new life sometime in my distant future. What silly, childish, immature, irrational yet perfectly ED thinking.

And that, my friends, is the power of an addiction, of an illness, of ED. What could be more precious than a newborn baby?  Yet, even that, was not reason enough for me to continue, every day, my constant need for perfection, for control. ED is strong, stronger than you can possibly imagine, but through all of this, I realized that there is someone stronger than ED, someone that before my life even began, was watching over me, knowing that I would go through trials and frustrations and life breaking, heart aching pains, someone who would lead me through my eating disorder and allow me to regain health, to help others and now…..to be a mother to two of the most precious gifts I could ever have dreamed of. Now, ’tis by the grace of and because of my God that I sit and write about my second pregnancy.

If you are struggling with an eating disorder and life seems exhausting cling to the hope that ED does not have to run, ruin or have control of your life. Be strong and know, as Joshua 1:9 says, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

May peace be upon you this holiday season.

Wise words….

I consider myself extremely blessed to have true friends in my life. Friends that have been there through thick and thin with you. Yes, there are many time that we have gasped for breath as we laugh so hard it hurts, but then we have also been through the valleys of life together too.

I had the opportunity to visit one of those friends this week while down in Southern California. She passed along some wonderful advice that she received from her lovely Mom and I thought I would pass it along to you….

                        “Moments in Life”

1. There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from your
dreams and hug them for real! So cherish them while
they are with you.

2. When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the closed door that
we don’t see the one, which has been opened for us.

3. Don’t go for looks; they can deceive.  Don’t go
for wealth; even that fades away.  Go for someone who
makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make
a dark day seem bright.  Find the one that makes your
heart smile.

4. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to
go; be what you want to be, because you have only one
life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

5. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep
you human and enough hope to make you happy.

6. The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the
best of everything; they just make the most of everything
that comes along their way.

7. The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past; you can’t go forward in life until you
let go of your past failures and heartaches.

8. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. So live your life so at the end,
you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you
is crying.

9. Don’t count the years-count the memories…….Life
is not measured by the number of breaths we take; but
by the moments that take our breath away!     Amen.

Now go, take on the day!